Seni yang telah lama menghilang, Kini memilih untuk kembali ke Bumi

Yep, Namanya dah tukar, No longer www.deideian.com, sekarang tukar balik jadi blogspot,entah masih ke tidak orang baca blog, lantaklah, asal hati puas menulis

When is it? the last time I wrote in this blog ah? apu 3 Years ago, tak sedar masa berlalu, tup-tup 3 series dah umur ku, hmm.. jangan tanya dan simpan aja niat kamu ku nak bertanya soklan-soklan cepumas tu.

Memori bersama beberapa rakan sekerja yang lama, orang putih ni datang dan pergi, kita staff local aja yang lazimnya stay

Now I got employed as Full-fledge Jedi, eh salah, Teacher, I got a job in this awesome school where I got to enjoy to teach various "type" or "species" of kids ranging from the age of 5 to 16, Oh Mai Goat haha..

Whatsoever I do in that school, it's confidential (actually I don't even know what to share here with you guys, just simply have the drive to write any post tonight)

Adik saya yang kecik kiut miut dahulu, kini dah besar panjang dah.. adik, kenape tinggi sangat? haha

Dari masa ke semasa, saya akan tulis lagi, this year akan jadi sibuk sesangat, sebab plan nak menyibukkan diri, ni kira dah belajar dari pengalaman lepas, fed-up yah tersangatlah fed-up apabila tenang takda kerja, rasa macam tak berguna, tapi tentu sekali kerja/aktiviti yang saya maksudkan adalah sesuatu yang saya suka, kekadang pasrah aja time dapat tugas yang merunsingkan atau membosankan.

Kalian fahamkah apa yang saya cuba hujahkan disini? cewah BM Tahap apa dah ku guna ni, ehem..

Ni Gambar sebelum, iaitu semasa masih jadi Manusia

Berbalik kepada segala apa yang telah kita lihat dalam/pada (tak pasti mana satu word yang betul) tahun 2016, banyak, yes amat banyak perkara yang terjadi, salah satunya adalah er.... ramai orang mati.. tak kiralah mereka adalah kenalan sahabat handai ke.. ( yep terjadi di kampung saya, beberapa hari before Chritsmas), Politician ke, atau celebrity, banyak yang dah pergi..

Sambutan Tahun Baru, Aktiviti jadi Zombi bersama rakyat

Bila dah capai 3 series ni, diri ini tak seperti dulu, enjin dah sejuk sangat, no longer hot-blooded macam dulu, sehinggakan communication skill pun jadi rusty, bayangkan saya yang dulunya boleh crack joke dimana-mana, sekarang ni klu jumpa orang ( especially kawan baru, lidah boleh jadi kaku, mungkin sebab mereka amoi cantik kut? )

dah dah, post jangan banyak sangat, lebihnya kita simpan untuk kemudian hari..

Saya menulis ni bukannya apa, sebab kekadang bila kita tengah jenuh memikirkan masa depan, sibuk berkayuh menentang arus kehidupan, penulisan sebegini sedikit sebanyak membantu menceriakan jiwa yang suram, and at the asme time even without friend (so sad haha), kita masih mampu tertawa, One of a sign that we improve in terms of being Intelligent Creature on this Earth.

Jumpa lagi..

Dawn of 2014

I know this may sound demented, but recently there's a hell lot of stuff begin to swirl inside my head, lots of ideas pop up out of no where and the eagerness to do all those things happen at the same time and yes this is making me crazy in some way.

Well, first of all, I would like to apologize for being absent for so long from this blogging world, it’s not that I’m neglecting my blog entirely, and it is not because I have no love for writing anymore. Time and interest, and also inspiration are the main factor that drives me to keep on writing so far, thus due for lacking all those three ingredients makes me weak in some ways.

Well, it is already February but since this is my first post for this year, I wish you (whoever you are, whether you are one of my readers or happen to be accidentally stumble into this blog of mine) a happy new year and yes including Chinese new year as well and happy valentine, anything else than that?

There is not so much a thing to report anyway, well let me see…..

As you all notice, my blog was no longer named as www.deideian.com, I forgot to pay the annual bills for the domain fee and so my blog has been inactive since.. How long is it? I don’t know myself, perhaps for several months and some of my friends mention to me that they were unable to look into my blog, wondering whether it is some sort of under maintenance or being deleted. And yeah, I’ve been trying to revive it since last week, most of my knowledge regarding HTML and Java script were no longer available in my head, it maybe stored somewhere at the back of my cerebllum or selebrum , ah who cares. So I had it roll back into http://deideian.blogspot.com ,well, that’s that. My blog has been re-animated once again.

I got myself a new job as a Tour Operation Co- ordinator, the job nature is to receive and manage the clients tour or transfer request, liaise with various and countless types of tour agency, answering phones, making inquiry, and lot sort of stuff that I myself still in the process of absorbing and squeezing it into my small brain. I‘ve landed myself as this TO (Tour Operator) when I furiously click on every job available on Jobstreet, sending application along with my resume as a trumpcard. I though the idea of working as a Tour Agent is great, I imagine myself having to work and go for the holiday trip at the same time while meeting lots and lots of new friend (clients) from all over the world. Uhh that is what  thought but hey, the reality is way too cruel to be true. Well I won’t complaint on how boring and troublesome the job is (but I just did!), And my colleague had warned me that I may get busy after several months, doing tons of client's request to the point that I may need additional hand to help me get the job done. well here's several picture that may help you and me to enjoy this post for today;

I myself don't even know what am I doing at that moment

The current youth team member - Lambir division

still a Liverpool fan even though I don't know the players name apart from Gerald and er..

The latest/current me

being sissy during prayer meeting/ or singing rehearsal for youth performance?

Merry feast with lots of guess

Mom do loves puppy

the Full Fledge member of Parish Youth Fellowship team of St Barnabas

ain't she's the sweetest thing? hahah

help, we're homeless

this is one of the reason why I didn't have time to blog, currently working on our family farm

these two do enjoy bathing in the swamp

The lonesome swords master.. huiyo

fun with the geyser.. i mean the splash that i made

omg this is authentic

during Christmas parade for 2013

look at how silly when the three of us together

the atmosphere is so happening and crazy out here

a penny for your thought?

the veteran team

meet up with the ladies

we do enjoy singing even when we're at the farm

another lifecycle with another bath of new friend

The Cowboy team

The Entrepreneur 

So that's that, yeah that's all from me, perhaps I'll add some more but that need to wait after I got a spark of inspiration hahaha, see ya

The What the Fish, nonsense

Jobless, and miserable, that’s what happening to me right now. Actually I don’t even know what to say, it’s been a long time since the last I post my entry into this blog of mine. When is it, last year? Last two year? After 2010, i’ve been through a lot of thing, sometimes I’ve felt blessed, sometimes not, and I don’t want to remember all the bad things that had happen so far.

Well today I’ going to refresh my writing skill by writing about my dreams and etc etc, as long as it is related. First of all, Job, like any other college graduate, surely right after we got our degree, we wanna jump straight into the world of ‘work’. And out of 100 people i dare say that the reason of why they need to get a job, or should I say they were desperate to get a job ( surely it’ll be great if the job description match our qualification) is because

1)      To pay bill of course, like me, at the moment i’m jobless, currently depending on my unofficial source of income which is by tutoring several kids from the age of 9 till 18 next door. The paid is quite okay and it is the only way for me to pay my car loan and phone bills.

2)      Leisure, regardless what it is but as long as it is something that help to make us feel ease from any burden and relieve us from stress. In my case, I still can’t afford to do that right now. But i’ve got my eyes and i’ve set it as my goal, i believe i’ll be able to achieve it next year, alright my goal is to travel to south Korea, lately i’ve subscribe a lot of online lesson on how to speak Korean, it’s sounds funny isn’t it? I’ve been having this dream since my last trip to Sabah with my friends, oh well we are going to Singapore this November, several month ago i was excited and eager to look forward for the trip but now the feeling getting’s sour and... i don’t know, maybe it just me, i bet that there’ll be a lot of exciting stuff wait for us next month. But still, i determine to go to south korea, gradually learn to speak a sentence or two but I believe mastering the language will not be a problem for me. Imagine the beauty scenery when i got there somethere (hopefully by the end of next year), climbing seorak mountain, going to Nami Island, Jeju Island, having kimbab and kim chi, and then dance with the local folks, at the same time I may probably met with several celebrities who live nearby.

3)      China, the funny thing about this is, before we plan our trip to Singapore, I’ve bought this piece of pocket map, which turns out to be a giant map after I’ve unfold it several times. Beijing, Peking, great wall of china, forbidden city. I’ll go there, i will be. In terms of communication, no problem at all. Money? Well China and Korea currencies is a little lower than Malaysian, still I figure that if I or we (perhaps I’ll with friends, or you? Perhaps) will need to spend a hell lot of money in terms of food and accommodation. Yeah money helps when it comes to help tourist adapt/survive in other coutry/cultures ah whatever.

4)      Dating? Marriage? No comment, currently 27 years old, and i’ve got a face that make people tend to underestimate me before they’re dumbstruck by my own capabilities, and this matter has been proven again and again and again, regardless in any kind of work field, I’m capable to surpass any people in a short time, given if there’s a good reward or whether it is fun to do. This may be funny but i got this feeling that I may find my bride, not in this country, but from abroad. Hey that’s crazy but yeah, it’s just a feeling. And it’s not a crime to have such dream eh?

5)      A friend of mine have bought a house, and currently living a steady life and having an exciting job as lecturer. I felt happy for him, really I do, for he graduate a year earlier than me but stranded for about one or two year? Now i understand how miserable it is when a man nearing 30 years old, jobless and still living in parents house. And worst of all, single. Oh it’s so silly if anybody suggest or introduce me to somebody when i’m still nobody, therefore a career is a must for a man, not only it helps to put the food on the table, but also serve as a pride, something that makes a man feel whole and awesome, maybe not complete but yeah, it helps any man feels terrific. While I’m writing this, I heard my dogs barking at the trash collectors in front of our house, oh yes I have dogs now, even got 3 of them (originally I got 6 dogs, 1 fluffy cat and a canary). Previously I mention that how I hate the dog so much to the point that I could hit them with my safety boots, hit them with a club, or run them with a car. But now I love them. They were so adorable. I guess that’s one thing that had change in me.

6)      My body has deteriorate for the past 2 years, back in the day when I was a college student, almost every day I went for sport and doing lots of exciting and extreme activities with colleague. Having a high metabolism helps me having a great shape, but now my abs were no longer visible, and my triceps were like tofu, every now and then whenever I try to do some heavy work, I’m sweating and easily tired. And so I’ve decided to re-train this body to become what it used to be. Certainly it ain’t going to be easy but at least I’ve started. I had to point this out because whenever I went out to meet an old friend, they surely mention about my ‘state’ like “oh hey, you’re still the same old Deideian” or “ hey man, you’re still ____ as usual”. Sometimes it makes me happy but mostly not, I eat a lot but won’t go fat, till now still the same but not for my stomach, I’m starting to transform into an some grumpy old fart. Money still played an important role to overcome this matter, we don’t just work for the sake of having to pay bills and for leisure, we don’t just simply want to maintain a healthy life either, we want to stay in the shape and great at all time, regardless whether we go for muscle or fashion/accessory . money still count

7)      I’m still thinking about reason number 7 but still fail to get one, hahaha,  I think this is it, the reason why a man like me really need a job is the need to feel secure, and for those who got girlfriend and planning to going to get marry, they need a proper job in order to impress their mate, if you’re a soldier, people will salute you according to your rank, if you’re some sort of senior executive or a CEO in some big company, you will walk into your building, accompany by dozens of bodyguard and you secretary and you assistant as well, while walking through the corridor, your subordinate or worker will rise from their chair and greet you “ good morning Sir” while you walk pass by them wearing coat, and smoke an expensive cigar and nodded at them while saying “ keep the good work”. Your parent, your girlfriend or your spouse, and event your children must be very proud of you. You have money, and even more important, Position, a rank that symbolize you as an important person, a big shot indeed. That’s what i aim for, and even more than that.

8)      Oh I’m surprise that I still got something to write in here, just now i remember about my dream, either it is a delusion or a dream oh whatever, it’s about what will happen to me several years later, maybe 10 years to come, I am successful, in terms of job and life, and in that dream I don’t even know what’s my job is, or maybe I own a business? Then after making lots of money, I add in another property of mine, since I got a lot kind of property, this time I buy a horse ranch, or even better, a vast land, filled with many kind of exotic animal, like in new Zealand, then I buy 10 to 20 horses, and a chopper, i mean a helicopter, and all that stuff I present it to my father as a gift, I present him the best stallion, and several cabins for him and my mother and also for guess, I buy him several new toys like hunting riffle, or even better, a sniper, and lots of bullets, night vision goggle for him and perhaps for his friend in future whenever they plan to go for hunting.

9)      For my mother, I’ll put her name as a chairlady for several company of mine, i let her have fun managing the business since she love to sell things and stuff, oh yeah she’s a merchant currently. Or, if she refuses, then me and my future wife should word harder, in order to give them a grandchildren or two to play with. Oh how I love that idea very much hahaha.. my parents were getting old day by day, I realise this dream although it sounds imposibble and ridiculous, somehow deep inside me, I can feel it, I know i can make something for them, at least not now.. now i’m still a bad egg, unwanted and unlove by any employer who don’t even care to spend a time to take a look over my CV, perhaps there’s something that they want but I do not have it, but I’m a very fast learner as long as the job is exciting, adventurous, and of course.... legal. Perhaps they need someone with experience, oh hey with all the job in the world require experience, then the rate of employment among the undergraduates will be piling up. And imbalanced within the country system, regardless whether it is political or not, will crumble. Oh well, that’s the reason why human need mistake, someone will rise and become hero, when things gone smooth, someone need to throw in the stone to make the water ripple. And the shockwave hits the people like us.

10)   Self pride, right you see, whenever I met with somebody or any old friend who’re long time didn’t see, they surely ask ‘that’ question. I don’t blame them since i used to ask that kind of question too, and I still does. That simple phrase but hurting the man’s pride were “hey, what you doing right now?” or “where do you work right now?” or “do you still living with your parent?” or any other sentence but this is the best I can think of right now. Years ago when I still work with construction company, although living with stress day by day, but I’m proud with my job, then I became a teacher, a sub teacher for two school, I felt awesome and respected, the word ‘busy’ make me happy, for being busy means you’re given a ‘trust’ to do something important.

I think that’s it for today, perhaps there’ll be lots of grammatical error but I don’t care, my eyes getting tired and closing up and good nite, let’s sleep although the night still young.

Kembara ke masa lalu, sebagai Kekuatan Di masa Depan

Sudah dua hari, hari ini berapa haribulan? 13? yah 2 hari selepas tamatnya kontrak selaku guru ganti di sekolah itu, selama 6 bulan lamanya berkhidmat, akhirnya masa untuk mengucapkan selamat tinggal, namun andai pelajar ingin bertemu, mereka boleh hubungi saya bila bila masa sahaja, asalkan waktunya sesuai.

Semenjak sabtu lalu, (betul ke bahasa saya ini?) rasa bosan semakin.. semakin.. er semakin berbuah? semakin membesar? menjadi jadi? apa apalah yang anda boleh fikirkan asalkan anda faham bagaimana rasa bosan itu terjadi. ada kalanya saya lepak sendirian di kedai kopi (lazimnya di station one), surfing internet dengan perkhidmatan wifi yang tersedia sambil meneguk segelas air hot chocolate. yah selain facebook, saya sering buka email, iklan kerja, serta beberapa blog yang lain. mujurlah saya sempat re-new balik domain blog saya ini, terima kasih kepada NetKL kerana menyediakan servis yang cepat dan mantap.

6 bulan yang saya pelajari tentang diri ini ialah, saya dapati saya boleh buat bermacam2 benda, bunyinya macam meninggi diri tetapi tolonglah, oh tidak sama sekali saya bukan berniat begitu, namun tujuan saya tulis perihal itu disini adalah untuk menyatakan kenapa rasa bosan itu wujud walaupun punya pelbagai kemahiran. nak cipta lagu? dulu zaman universiti, selalu cipta lagu dan buat rakaman ala ala MTV bersama kawan kawan, dulu selalu lepak di studio, jamming samada bersama rakan sama batch atau bersama junior.

Waktu di sekolah, siap boleh buat filem pendek lagi bersama pelajar, impian ini terlampau banyak sehingga otak menjadi.. menjadi.. er.. overload? overdrive? over heat? apa apalah.. saya merndui zaman remaja saya, saya juga merindui zaman ketika menuntut di universiti, tiada penyesalan dan kalau ditanya andai boleh diputarkan semula ke masa lalu, saya akan menjawab " saya akan pastikan segala aktiviti yang saya lakukan bersama teman teman dahulu, saya gandakan sebanyak 3 kali, andai kata teman ada 500 orang, saya gandakan sebanyak 3 kali lagi!!

Tahun 2012 hampir tamat, saya tadi berhenti sebentar dari menulis kerana sakit perut, justeru landing di jamban selama beberapa minit untuk melepaskan segala beban yang terperap selama ini.. (warna coklat cair)
dan terlintas suatu idea mengenai apa yang patut diletakkan d entry saya untuk har ini..

Deideian 1: apakata kita letak gambar2 lama? selaku refresh untuk kenangan yang sudah sudah
Deideian 2: ok gak, lagipun 2012 hampir habis, usia sudah meningkat tua, saya on saja

Maka selepas berbincang dengan diri sendiri, saya putuskan untuk meletakkan beberapa gambar silam yang terpilih untuk.. er tontonan semua? ( ada ke tidak orang baca ini, lantaklah), saksikanlah zaman gila saya

Pada Zaman Dahulu.....

Ini adalah sewaktu meraikan majlis perkahwinan salah seorang daripada rakan saya, tetapi kalau lihat foto ini, macam meraikan kejayaan filem baru pulak, wahahaha.. sekarang masing masing sudah berisi seperti disepu..

Saya lupa sudah tarikh gambar ini diambil, tetapi waktu itu hanyalah sebagai wakil sahaja, untuk menerima Pingat bagi Majlis Perwakilan Pelajar tahun 2009.. nothing special, cuma naik pentas dan senyum.. tetapi terima kasih kepada rakan yang share gambar ini bersama saya (rupa saya hensem dan comel tak?)

 Saya paling suka waktu ini, waktu dimana majoriti penduduk miri berkumpul dan berarak mengelilingi bandar Miri.. Christmas Parade!!! penuh dengan manusia yang terdiri daripada pelbagai kaum, diringi dendangan lagu lagu dari pelbagai gereja, niat saya waktu itu hanya untuk berseronok dan photography!!

Yang ini adalah sewaktu lawatan ke.. er.. pantai? entah saya tak ingat, yang pasti waktu itu perjalanan adalah amat jauh, dan bas terpaksa naik laluan bukit secara zig-zag untuk maju dengan selamat.. tetapi kami selaku penumpang relax saja (tipu, sebenarnya takut setengah mati), rasa seperti cerita Final Destinatin ketika itu.

Ini adalah sewaktu bersama ahli youth, pendek kata saya enjoy sewaktu christmas sahaja, yang lain hanya lebih kepada memerhatikan mereka dalam membuat kerja, huehuehue.. waktu itu tidak berminat dengan aktiviti seperti ini.. saya lebih suka aktiviti ganas dan lasak..

Seisi re-union kami pada tahun 2010? 2011? entahlah, tetapi syok kerana boleh lepak sehingga larut malam, hahahaha... sempat lagi bergambar di pantai dan skodeng sepasang kekasih yang sedang bercium waktu itu.. itulah gunanya DSLR.. hahahaha!

Waktu ini, saya berani cabar mana mana remaja zaman sekarang untuk bertanding berlari JARAK JAUH.. kalau lari pecut saya tak tahu siapa lebih hebat, tetapi zaman saya ini, hampir kebanyakkan aktiviti adalah melibatkan larian, walaupun tidak pernah dapat tempat top ten, namun saya dan rakan rakan mampu mengalahkan kumpulan askar!!!! hahahaha.. ternyata mereka bukanlah sekuat yang disangkakan..

ohoho, waktu ini adalah zaman mula menjadi gila bersama rakan rakan, waktu hujan pun masih nak bergambar, kamera jenis apa kah itu hah?

Saya berlakon malu waktu itu hihihihi, cis.. sebenarnya tak bersedia untuk digambar

Kamera sebenarnya dimana? waktu ini terlibat dengan Pesta Kuching, menari dihadapan Ketua Menteri dan para VIP yang lain... hoyo, macam hindustan

ahahaha, ini adalah ahli ahli Persatuan Badminton saya sewaktu di universiti, kelab kami ini agak aktif waktu dahulu.. hahaha..

Kengan bersama para komando, kumpulan Lok Lok walaupun di tempat terakhir, namun agak feymes kerana banyak gelagat aneh dan lawak kami lakukan bersama

Bersama Kontijen saya : Kumpulan Perdana dengan maskot Naga putih.. wahaha, saya selalu lupa pakai kasut..

Ini adalah Kelab Musc & Art di universiti, selain music, kami juga terlibat dengan pelbagai perkara yang best seperti model-tak-jadi photography hahahaha.. lucah betul aksi itu

Ini adalah sewaktu bersama kazen- mazen saya sewaktu berkelah di pantai, ohoho semuanya sudah tinggi tinggi, dulu sewaktu kecil gemar mendengar saya cerita hantu.

Unit Promosi, Publisiti dan ICT, merupakan unit terbesar waktu itu, terdiri daripada 11 orang ahli dengan 2 pensyarah selaku penasihat dan ketua, saya waktu itu agak tension dan nervous menjadi ketua biro, namun seronok kerana dapat melancong free ke beberapa buah institusi/kolej yang lain.. banyak pengalaman yang kami perolehi.. thank you Madam!!

Percutian d Pulau Manukan bersama rakan rakan, hahaha.. banyak betul pelancong asing disana, penat namun tidak terasa..

Sempat membuat sesi photography dalam tahun ini, 2010 bersama saudara saya selaku model, waktu itu adalah merupakan experiment buat kami dalam bidang photography, hahahaha, oh ya nama kumpulan kami adalah Gecko-Photo..

Yang bernama DDN itu adalah saya, ohohoho ini adalah crew crew pertandingan Counter Strike Musim ke-dua di universiti kami.. best woo dapat organise event seperti ini..

Saya dan rakan rakan sewaktu pertempuran di Pertandingan Counter Strike tahun 2010 di One Tj, Kuching.. hoyo ramai team waktu itu.. kami lawan sedaya upaya namun you know.. kantoilah juga apabila berdepan dengan kumpulan penganjur.. cis dah tau jadi penganjur, buat apa ikut lagi?

oh ini adalah last day saya berkhidmat dan sempat juga saya jadi guru pengiring untuk pelajar ke pameran Dinotrek, hahaha, kami sempat mencuri beberapa biji belon.

Bergambar bersama kumpulan 3 KRK di sekolah tempat saya bekerja, semoga kalian menemui haluan yang best best dalam hidup anda!! apabila kita berjumpa, pastikan anda sudah berjaya waktu itu.. dan belanja cikgu makan!!!

Kata orang, peluang naik pentas adalah jarang sekali, selalu gak saya naik pentas namun untuk menerima sarjana, usaha 4 tahun di universiti hanya memerlukan kurang daripada 10 saat di atas pentas sewaktu menerima sijil.. hoyo

Bersama pelajar2 dari SMK Lopeng Tengah, oh mereka ini lebih ganas dari saya, sapa yang ajar? ahah, saya rasa waktu ini saya nak masak cucur pisang campur bawang, apa rasanya ho? namun malang sekali resipi itu tidak dibuat.. hahahah

itu sahajalah yang dapat saya kongsikan untuk hari ini, oklah saya pergi dulu, nak makan nasi goreng, bye

written by Deideian