Thursday, July 23, 2009
There just only one word to describe it, outstanding, or should I say like the crowd always does; awesome.. I’ve watch the movies two times, and I guess I’m going to watch it again. Well compare to the first one, the sequel is much more edgier, scarier, funny, splendid and nastier than before! I salute Michael Bay for this ( oh please be my teacher~). Say, the thing that attract me the most when I watch the movie;
“Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince”
The 6th movies in the HP series ( there is 7 books altogether, and I’ve read and re-read and re-re-read and the books for many times! A+++ will be mine if such question about HP were out in exam, I dare you hahaha)
So I’ve watched the movie on its Premier Day, 16th July 2009. Thursday. Right on it opening day. So here’s the thing;
Oh David Yates, I wish the next director would not be you.. I prefer the director from the 3rd HP movie, HP and the prisoner of Azkaban. Mr. Alphonse something ( can’t remember), and Peter Jackson- King Kong, Or Michael Bay instead!!! It’ll be more thrilling to see the final saga!!
While listening to instrumental song entitled: Arrival to Earth, I recall the thing that has happen to me for the past 2 weeks.
Starting from 13th July 2009, Sunday. My friends and I were involve in a running competition which is organized by SPRM ( I don’t know the meaning of this short form but I heard that they are from Badan Pencegah rasuah ). So the name’s for the big event that we join is ‘Larian Anti Rasuah’.
It’s been for three month since the last I involve in such sport because currently I undergoing my training as a trainee teacher in one of the secondary school in Kuching region. “Sekolah Menengah Kebangsaan Matang Jaya Kuching” yeah that’s right. And when I’m typing this down, it’s been 3 month since the first day I report in for duty. Okay enough of this sad story.
My friends and I were in the ‘Men’s A category in which our route and running distance is different than others. 10 kilometers, can you imagine that? Oh my God, I still remember during my days as a freshmen in august 2007, Sukan Unitar; I’ve took part in 5000 meters run, which took me to run on the track field for 12 times before I fininsh it. And now? 10 km is a lot brother.. it is 2 times further than before but never mind, my aim is just for fun joining this anyway, evn though the price for the winner is RM5000/-, very tempting.
So in the end of the day, we’re able to finish the course. Still exhausted, we check on every booth ( which is open during the event, so many!!! Just like a carnival or something similar to that I guess ). Kelvin reckon that we should try on paintball, he says it’s fun! And yes it is true hehehe.. the three of us try it out and Jeremy took the last shot. And that’s the best feeling that I’ve ever had.
15th July 2009
It’s my birthday, well I’m not expecting too much anyway, but hey, my cell phone get busy starting at 12.00 am in the morning ( in which I have put it into silent mode) and it was buzzing throughout all night.
5.00 am or so I wake up to find out that I’ve got 14 messages and several miscall ( all were wishing me Happy Birthday ) ooo….. So they remember.. How sweet..
I went to school and start my duty as usual, but when I entered the class, te students of 4 Cemerlang and 4 Matang were all wishing me “Happy Birthday Sir!!!!” instead of the usual “Good morning”. So loud that I, myself became embarrassed with this. Somehow I fail to hide my smile in front of them and blushing ( gross eh?). and checking my facebook, I’ve find several of my friends ( including my fellow teacher ) also greet me the same wishes. Yeah.. that day is.. oh how touching..
21st July 2009
When I preparing for my teaching during the 7th period, suddenly miss bell call me; “hah Deideian, mana kamu? , kami ada di tempat parking dekat dengan kantin sekolah kamu”. Like a speed of lightning ( just kidding, I’m just saying ehe.. ) I meet them in instant and lead them to the class where the main course began. Wah!! Thank God I’ve prepare ( ever since the last few days) but still nervous and everything. I managed to pulled through the tension. Luckily the student behave themselves that day ( and theres only a few of them today. Originally 34 students but only 26 that present)
In the end, Puan Zeliha and Miss Bell comment about my ways of teaching. Yeah there still a lot of thing that can be improve but hey, they praise me for improving a lot since our last meeting.. so glad to hear that huhuu
Oh my song already end. I think I’m going to get myself a cup of tea.
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
Breakfast at McDonald’s
This is a good story and is true, please read it all the way through until the end! (After the story, there are some very interesting facts!
I am a mother of three (ages 14, 12, 3) and have recently completed my college degree. The last class I had to take was Sociology. The teacher was absolutely inspiring with the qualities that I wish every human being had been graced with. Her last project of the term was called, ‘Smile.’ The class was asked to go out and smile at three people and document their reactions. I am a very friendly person and always smile at everyone and say hello anyway. So I thought this would be a piece of cake.
Soon after we were assigned the project, my husband, youngest son, and I went out to McDonald’s one crisp March morning. It was just our way of sharing special playtime with our son. We were standing in line, waiting to be served, when all of a sudden everyone around us began to back away, and then even my husband did. I did not move an inch… and overwhelming feeling of panic welled up inside me as I turned to see why they had moved. As I turned around I smelled a horrible ‘dirty body’ smell, and there standing behind me were two poor homeless men. As I looked down at the short gentleman, close to me, he was ’smiling’. His beautiful sky blue eyes were full of God’s Light as he searched for acceptance. He said, ‘Good day’ as he counted the few coins he had been clutching. The second man fumbled with his hands as he stood behind his friend. I realized the second man was mentally challenged and the blue-eyed gentleman was his salvation. I held my tears as I stood there with them. The young lady at the counter asked him what they wanted. He said, ‘Coffee is all Miss’ because that was all they could afford. (If they wanted to sit in the restaurant and warm up, they had to buy something. He just wanted to be warm). Then I really felt it - the compulsion was so great I almost reached out and embraced the little man with the blue eyes. That is when I noticed all eyes in the restaurant were set on me, judging my every action.
I smiled and asked the young lady behind the counter to give me two more breakfast meals on a separate tray.
I then walked around the corner to the table that the men had chosen as a resting spot. I put the tray on the table and laid my hand on the blue-eyed gentleman’s cold hand. He looked up at me, with tears in his eyes, and said, ‘Thank you.’ I leaned over, began to pat his hand and said, ‘I did not do this for you. God is here working through me to give you hope.’
I started to cry as I walked away to join my husband and son. When I sat down my husband smiled at me and said, ‘That is why God gave you to me, Honey, to give me hope.’
We held hands for a moment and at that time, we knew that only because of the Grace that we had been given were we able to give. We are not church goers, but we are believers. That day showed me the pure Light of God’s sweet love. I returned to college, on the last evening of class, with this story in hand. I turned in ‘my project’ and the instructor read it. Then she looked up at me and said, ‘Can I share this?’I slowly nodded as she got the attention of the class. She began to read and that is when I knew that we as human beings and being part of God share this need to heal people and to be healed. In my own way I had touched the people at McDonald’s, my son, instructor, and every soul that shared the classroom on the last night I spent as a college student.
I graduated with one of the biggest lessons I would ever learn:
Much love and compassion is sent to each and every person who may read this and learn how to
LOVE PEOPLE AND USE THINGS - NOT LOVE THINGS AND USE PEOPLE.
There is an Angel sent to watch over you. In order for her to work, you must pass this on to the people you want watched over.
An Angel wrote:
Many people will walk in and out of your life, but only true friends will leave footprints in your heart.
To handle yourself, use your head. To handle others, use your heart.
God Gives every bird its food, but He does not throw it into its nest. Send it back, you’ll see why!
A Box of gold
With a secret inside
that has never been told
This box is priceless
but as I see
The treasure inside is
precious to me
Today I share this
treasure with thee
It’s the treasure of
friendship you’ve, given me.
If this comes back to you
then you’ll have a friend
for life but, if this
becomes deleted, you are
not a friend.
Sunday, July 19, 2009
NI AKU NAK CRITA PASAL SATU BENDA…. AHAD LPAS, SEHARI SUNTUK KAMI SEKUARGA BERSIAR2X, JAP PI C, JAP PI SABERKAS, HOPOH… TERGOPOH2 AND AKHIRNYA BALIK UMAH LAH! TAPI ITU BUKAN APA YG AKU NAK CRITA.. YANG AKU NAK MENTION DISINI IALAH TIME AKU BERJALAN 2X SAMBIL TENGOK BAJU DI NGIUKEE.. KAT SABERKAS LAH… HAH, TIME AKU TENGAH SYOK SYOK BELEK, BAJU.. FULAMAK… BAJU NYA…. DESIGN NYA…. HARGANYA PUN ….. CANTIK… MAKA AKU PUN BLAH LAH…. AKU DUDUK KAT KERUSI COUCH TEMPAT ORANG UJI KASUT… “ LAMA NYA MEREKA NI BELI BARANG… BELI APA TU???? MAKA ARAKIAN LAH KISAHNYA.. AKU PUN ANGKAT KAKI… JALAN JALAN CARI HABUAN… AKU PI KEDAI VCD.. AKU DAH TAK INGAT AR APA NAMA KEDAI TU…. SEPI… SEPI… SPEEDY… ALAHAI… N AKU MASUK… SEKALI IMBAS.. MATA KU TERTANGKAP SATU CRITA YANG BEST…. TEKA APA?? MASKED RIDER LAH WEI… HAHAHAHHAHA!!!!! PAS AKU BELI VCD TU… AKU IKUT LAGI MANA KAKI KU BAWA PERGI… HOHOHO… AKU TIBA DI KEDAI GAME… PUNYALAH BANYAK GAME KAT SITU…MAKA AKU DGN GATAL TANGAN… AKU PUN AMBIK LAH SATU… PRICENYA MURAH AJA… TERINGIN NAK BELI SATU LAGI…
BALIK UMAH.. HAMPIR NAK PENGSAN…. YALAH… DAH KERING DAYA AKU TOK… NI ULIH
WAI… NADAI KALA URANG BUJANG MIAK NUAN NYA TAU TAK NYAMAI NDAR LEMIK TULANG…. HEH!!! “SWICHT” YEAH, I KNOW THIS SOUND CRAZY… AND THEN … I IMMEDIATE SMS MY FRIEND AND MY UNCLE REGARDING ON HOW TO INSTALL THIS PC GAMES…. THEN I’VE GOT THE INSTRUCTION THROUGH SMS… AND I INSTALL IT LAH!!! WAT DO U ESPECT? I PLAY THE GAME UNTIL PAST MIDNIGHT… HOYO!! HOW COME? I’VE ADDICT ALREADY…. HOW? HOW? NI HOW MA??? AFTER THAT…. I WATCH MY VCD.. ALL THE STUPID PROGRAMME WERE OVER ON 2 N THE HALF IN DA MORNING… HOHOHHO… ACTUALY.. I WAS PLANNING T DO MY REVISION THIS WEEK SINCE WE ARE GOING TO HAVE MY FINAL ON NEXT WEEK… EVERY CERTAIN HOUR I WILL PRAY TO GOD TO BLESSED ALL THE PERSON THAT I KNOW WILL LEAD A HAPPY LIFE AS WELL AS ME… HOPELLY I CAN STRENGTHEN MY MIND IN ORDER TO BE FOCUS ON MY STUDY… CRITICAL WEEK LAH PAK CK… OK THEN , THAT’S ALL FROM ME… WAT?
CHIEF OF THE TSUBAGAKURE
Every time when i woke up.
And i look my self at the mirror...
I'm alway's wondering.. what kind of person am i?
what is it that make differencess betwenn people?
wah~ some people said: " isn't life is great?"
while some people cursed; " life sucks!!"
Yet i can't say which one i am..
Maybe i'm the first?
Or maybe i'm in the second?
Or maybe both of it?
Then how should i define my self?
Do i have any special gift?
Or anything about me that i, myself also haven't discover?
What does people think when they look at me?
i assume that people dislike me on their first impression...
I guess so... Please correct me if i'm wrong~
I wish i know the answer for all my question..
Why is it like this? why is it like that?
haha.. never mind... no need to worry, said the the old man... ( my father lo)
I remember he said; son, when i was in your age.. i've been train to be tough, responsible, and learn to be wise from experience... all of this... slowly implement into me.. and had made what i am for today. So bear in mind... TO BE A MAN is not as easy as turning over one's palm. Therefore, remember this; MEN OF PRINCIPLE, HAVE COURAGE.. be brave son...
Still, i fail to be brave like what i've promise... i guess.. although i struggle hard to be better.. i... ah.. just like what the Confucius said:
"It is for man to plan, but for heaven to decide..."
-So I’m just waiting for 7.10 am, then proceed to 4M alone, as my mentor said that she will be there, “Already be there” to be precisely, that is what she said. So today’s mathematic lesson for both 4c and 4m were also be conducted within double periods. Just now I saw my name on the notice board, upon a piece of red paper, no 20- Deideian, Sit-In for class 5T, waktu ke-10..
-And so, I’m head towards class 4m all by myself, bringing only my black pen and my notebook, I entered the class. Well Cikgu Lau haven’t arrive yet , and I’m being greeted by students, I’m touched, so this is how it feel being a teacher. Being honored and respect by our students, almost like master and apprentice hahaha. So I’m sitting alone at the back, scribbled down some of thing that I’ve been through today roughly in my pocket notes, before I transfer and wrote it down properly in this “LOGBOOK: the Book of Thought and Life Journey”. I say ahahh..
-As what I can see, there are 25 to 30 students in total within this class. So far okay, they ( the students) do show their respect towards teacher and show some good value yet also obedience.
-So Cikgu Lau enters, and the class greet her and then everything went very well today. Their level of discipline is very good. And I can see that Cikgu Lau always smile and more relax in this class. The atmosphere felt so harmony indeed. Man, how I like this class so much! Although they are quite naughty but they Co-operate very well, unlike 4c- class of the devils..
-so to begin what I’ve been through this day, I’ll start from the moment I arrive here. I’ve arrive here at 6.40 am approximately and then proceed to Pejabat Am all by myself without waiting for my friends to come.
-so within a few hour in this school, I’ve manage to met several people (the teachers of course). Entering the general office, take off my shoes, walk in, and then asking question whether I can meet with The Principal, then I’ve been inform that the principal is away at the moment. So then I’ve met Cikgu Liza ( Penolong Kanan Hal Ehwal Murid-PKHEM for short), wow, she have a very fierce looking kind of expression, can’t think of what is it that time, just merely shock by looking at her. But I’ve manage to introduce myself , courtesy call I guess hehe.. then I’ve met with Cikgu Ahmad ( Penolong Kanan Ko-Kurikulum-PK KK for short) and then I’ve met up with person who are second In command in this school, Penolong Kanan Satu-PK 1, Cikgu Haji Abang Ismawi Bin Abang Muhi more commonly known as Cikgu Abang around here. I describe him as, a stern looking man with an aggressive look on his face, much more powerful and how to say? I guess he’s the man who has a total control around this school, apart from the principal herself. My first impression when I met him was; “this is a man that I cannot cross with”, and I’m filled with sensed of admiration as I look his aura of leadership and strong character. And through him I’ve learn that our school principal name is Cikgu Saftuyah Binti Hj Adenan, yet I haven’t met her.
-So then Mythnya ( my colleague though not in the same major but from the same institution) came and both of us follow him to another room ( what room is that again? I forgot to check), I’ve been introduced to Guru Kanan Science Dan Mathematic, Cikgu Welcymina, a former SMK RIAM, Miri teacher. As she said so after I’ve introduced myself. I’ve been given my time table and then been brought to staffroom to meet my chief, Ketua Guru Panitia Mathematic, Cikgu Beatris. And so again, shake hand, smile, and after introduced to each other. We burst into discussion, there she share with me about school, syllabus, my mentor and any other things that might be relevant for me to take notes. So I just merely nodded and listen to every word while my hand was jotting everything that she said. And then we off to meet my mentor; Cikgu Lau Siew Ching, Chinese ( Fu-Chow) and a fine young lady, kind and helpful. Though very awkward at the moment heheh.
-We then discuss a lot about teaching matters, timetable, mine and her roles during this practicum period and etc..
-Then she off with another female teacher, Cikgu Su Lay Ching for breakfast while I’m off to Pejabat Am to Photostat the stuff that she gave me.
-And now I’m waiting for 9.50 am, interval time, but I’m not going out to have any meal as I’ don’t feel like eating at the moment. And while I’m waiting, I’ve met several more teacher especially Cikgu Sophia who are in charge of arranging all the stuff in the staffroom, from a scratch to furniture I guess, she ask me to move to a more secure and wider place and I accept it, and now my seat number change from 10 to 19, much more nearer to teachers lobby and can easily access to the internet services in here. I also met up several female teacher ; Cikgu Sadhana, Cikgu Kartina, Cikgu Azizah and Uztazah Latifah. These people I ‘ve met when I’m strolling and wondering in staffroom, looking at the notice board. So again the introduction session begin and then. Most of them gave me a similar advice “don’t be too friendly with students or you’ll be step on”, be strict for the first time”.
-So on my first day school, I’m just hanging around the office gathering as much information as I want while Mythnya? I don’t know and have not a slightest idea on where she have going right this moment, but I’ve saw her name on the “Sit-In” list just now. Poor Mythnya, all the best to you ya? As she will be off to enter class 4J-Julang at 9.40 am later on. There I’ve just remember to what of my colleague said, 4J, can be consider as the last and the lowest grade of all form 4 level in a certain school, and thank God there is no 6J around here, there is? I don’t know, later then I’ll check it up.. Fearing that there might be 6 jahanam in this school, then my days would be in misery afterwards huhu.. later then I’ve enter class 4C with my mentor
-So here it is. The time has begun, and my hands were trembling when I’m writing this. So mathematic class on Monday, is on 4C, 10.20 till 11.40, 2 periods. 4C stand for 4 Cemerlang. I hope for the best, but I’m wrong. The moment I step in the class with Cikgu Lau, the atmosphere change. So they aware of my present, and they thought that I’m a Nazir, coming of observation hahaha! Okay back to our main topic. So based on Cikgu Lau Siew Ching teaching method or should I say, her style. Her famous word is “Focus & Listen”. Then she instruct all the students in class to clear up all the books from the other subject and take out their copy of Mathematics Form 4 Text Book. Then she scribbled on the whiteboard the topic that they will learn for today lesson and begin the induction set, asking several students on what have they learn in the previous lesson .
-So the topic for tday lesson is; Gradient of Straight Line, then she wrote the formulae on the white board and begun the class discussion. I see that they have been assign to do exercises from the previous lesson. So I’ve analyze every each of students behavior and respond towards teacher ways of teaching. The level of student Co-operation is very low. I’ve been inform that there are 34 students within this classroom; 12 female students and the rest is male of course. Cikgu Lau indeed use the two ways of Communication during teaching and learning process; which mean that teacher ask and explain, while students respond. 20% of the students were participating while the rest are doing their own stuff. Students attire= quite satisfactory, 70% clean and considered as hygiene. So after discussion, Cikgu Lau switches to F&Q session. In the same time, problems will be given for students to solve. I see that most of the students within this class room were quite brilliant after all, the problem that is only they are too stubborn to listen to teachers word. As I put myself in their shoes, me too felt that the class is not interesting at all, sorry miss Lau, don’t be offended heheh.. just giving my point of view. Well then, she distribute the handouts and also instruct then to open some page on the students text book ( can’t remember what page). Class management? Quite poor, she use force to instill discipline, deduct school points or demerit, scolding and yelling. I guess by the time she turn into 30 or 40 something, she might already get a lot of white hair heheh.. I’ve also have no idea on how to control these all people. They are not human, they are a little devils with a mask of human child. But we’ll wait and see who’s better. I can’t wait to teach them by the end of this week. Hero will arrive soon hahaha.
-Based on my analysis, the arrangement of students seat in 4C is based on “5 by 7”grid. From the front view, which is 2 row from the front to the back at the left side is quite passive type of students, they don’t make any trouble at all yet they also did not participate in class discussion at all. Cikgu Lau just merely instruct the students verbally. I say, couldn’t she just write it on the white board then she don’t have to yell at them? Her style is not too effective at all.. sorry again miss Lau. So those students who are quite troublesome are all in the back seat at the right side of class from the teacher’s seat front view. They are smart, but as I said just now, they are all little devils. Those who are in front are quite supportive. I see that there are 6 prefects in this classroom. Okay, so the situation continues as the teacher threaten students with demerits and enforcement. Students have been assigning to do exercise, but the environment turns out to be pasar ikan in the end. What a shame.
- The bell rang and the class end, we head back to office, there we discuss again on the lesson, then we meet again with Cikgu Beatris and she told me to Photostat Takwim Sekolah, Together with the yearly lesson plan. Then I met with Cikgu David who help with to register as a school stuff and thumbprint procedure, I’ve heard of punch card before but hey, this is new for me. And then, nearly time to back home. At 1.15 pm, I’ve just having a walk around the area and there I met with my colleague, Mythnya. She seem energetic and cheerful, wow, she said that it is easy to control the class as long as you know the right timing and approach, I salute you Mythnya. Sit-In is something but for 4J? It’s a hell man.. then I call my aunt to fetch me at school and end of the stories of my first day in school.. see you tomorrow.
Cinta memang indah tp byk ranjau onak berduri didlmnye.....
Hmm kali ni ku nak keep low profile, keep the secret within. So rata student ku Cuma tau nama ku, umur mereka tak pasti sbb aku jawab dgn pelik2. Asal aku dan bangsa. Itu aja.. ada sekali mereka Tanya aku, “cikgu! Cikgu ada gerek ka?”. Lelaki yg Tanya tu, bukan perempuan, klu perempuan ok la sikit eceh, reasonnya mana la tau yg mereka berminat. Ye la, ni tak, laki yg Tanya. Apa barang? Ceh.. so aku pun jawab pelik2, sampai mereka fedup nak Tanya. Ada yg bertekad nak tau juga. Gila apa?
Pasal kehidupan seharian? Nothing much to do, aku kini ada banyak hobi baru. Yg ku cipta sendiri, klu ku buat konfem orang ingat aku ni gila. Ye la boring dikatakan. Ada sekali ku nak buat essy atau sajak. Ku tulis ‚hidup ku sepi~tanpa cinta dan teman, driving kereta kena saman’wakakaka.. begitulah tahap boring ku. kAlau ini penyakit berjangkit dah darurat dah satu negara. So aku try habiskan masa dgn surfing internet, membaca ( habis 7 buah buku Harry Potter ku baca untuk kali yg ke 3,), tulis lagu, menyanyi karaoke, game, tgk cerita drama korea dan jepun n macam macam lah.. ee, ingat saya suka ka time boring? Bazir umur saya aja.. tension saya, nah sekarang dah bersaya berkamu plak. Ceh..
Hmm.. pengalamanku, aku x pernah bercinta la, tapi klu ikut bunyi lagu paramour-crush crush crush tu adala.. ini cerita puppy love ku yg x kesampaian suatu ketika dahulu, tatkala ku di bangku smk, aku ni sbb badan kecik, so salu jadi posmen kengkawan lain, baru aku tau.. jadi posmen ni tugasnya mencabar oo, orang kata; kalau kita marah, kita patut tunjukkan kemarahan kita, tapi sanggup ka kamu tunjukkan kemaluan kamu time kamu malu? Gila apa, erti kata disini adalah sanggup ka kamu dgn muka yg tebal hantar surat cinta bau wangi perfume minyak sabat Bengali, hantar dgn student perempuan, tapi yg best nya, klu si lelaki tu kena reject, saya tetap dapat kawan baru, sbb saya yg berkenalan dgn orang tu dulu maa.. sbb tu saya kata posmen ni berjiwa kental dan berani. Tetapi jeng jeng jeng, arakian datanglah seorang student pompuan yg memang aku terkejut beruk. Memang dia cantik cute apa semua seperti mana student laki lain pun lapar tgk dia, tapi yg buat aku terkejut adalah; dia adalah kawan aku masa childhood dulu, tika ku berumur 5,6,7 tahun di marudi. Kemudian berpisah, dan jumpa semula tika kami berumur 13 tahun. N kemudian senarionya berubah, jadi sakit hati plak saya sbb disuruh kengkawan laki hantar surat dgn nya, cis, langsung x macho. Kemudian sedih la saya time dia kuar ngan orang lain.. hanya mampu melihatnya dari jauh.. main tapok2 di belakang pokok, tgk dia dating dgn kawan saya. Rasa mau ku tumbuk! Pokok yg di depan ku ini cewah.. tapi itu kisah dulu, kalau temu kembali dgnnya pun saya gembira. Malangnya sekarang x dapat bertemu.. sbb DIA DAH TIADA.. masa nak berjumpa, almaklumlah, bz kerja. Kamu fikir apa? Ceh.. sampai sini sajalah, cerita saya dgn puteri impian saya tu tamat dan selebihnya rahsia alam semula jadi ok? Da~